Why do I feel this way? -

I have anxiety... my problems started with my sexuality when I was like 17.. since I was so young.. I remember I felt so anxious about an exam.. when I have an exam.. I feel nervous. a night before that.. I can t sleep.. I have been taking venlafaxine 150mg, and clonazempa of 2mg.. if I can t sleep at nights.. I have visited two psychologists.. they told me I could change my sexuality if I want.. one of both.. told me nobody was born gay..gays are by choice.. my psychiatry told me first.. I could change if I wanted.. now after months going with him.. I asked him again..and he told me being gay is something natural.. he reads something new.. well he told me I should not to care what people said about me. but in my case yess I am so sensible.. I try to ignore them. I live in a small town in mexico,.I try to ignore what people say about me but I can t.. it s me feel annoying.. i get so angry very easy.. I am 21 years old.. now.. I have hypertension and I have a headache now.. I have taken medications for it.. I feel so bad.. as well of my stomach.. my high blood pressure is something emotional.. that s another doctor told me.. I don t like going to pshycologists because I don t like to speak about my personal life.. I have came out with my mom.. I am a son of a single mother.. she was not OK.. and she still bad or sometimes she says she loves me for who I am.. but I dont know what will be the idea when I will have a bf.. because I haven t in a relationship never in my life. sorry for my bad english.. and nobody has answered me my last question. so I resposted

Here are some good ideas: 1. Do something that gets your heart rate up a bit like, walking, running, biking, and swimming. 2. Eat Whole, Organic foods like: Broccoli, Cabbage, Organic Brown Rice, Beans, Spinach, Sweet Potato, Apples, and other fruits and vegetables in their Natural State. 3. Avoid eating corn, white bread, white rice, white potatoes, candy, sodas, chips, and anything else that you already know you shouldn’t be eating. 4. Drink clean water as your beverage of choice. Avoid Fruit drinks and fruit juices (unless YOU juice them yourself) 5. Stop smoking, drinking beer amp; wine, and drinking coffee. 6. Get 8 hours of sleep each night. 7. Hang out with people who want to be healthy. 8. Avoid anything with High Fructose Corn Syrup. 9. Look into taking a multi-vitamin. 10. Check out this website for excellent health advice: up the muscles: 1. Join a gym and get a trainer. 2. If you’re short on cash, start a light stretching amp; yoga regimen. 3. Do push-ups, and light dumbbell curls for the upper body. 4. As I said above, walk, run, swim, and or bike 5. Take an aerobics class, a yoga class, or some other fitness class. 6. Join the local YMCA. 7. Buy or borrow this book by Bill Pearl called GETTING STRONGER. In the book, he describes everything you need for a great fitness plan. 8. Crunches amp; Curl ups for the abs. Mental Health: 1. Get a friend to talk to each day about your feelings. 2. If you have some money or insurance, get a counselor to talk to. 3. Learn how to meditate. 4. Join a support group for the issue you’re dealing with. 5. Ask your Higher Self (or God) for guidance. 6. Start keeping a diary or journal about your feelings amp; thoughts. 7. Write a ‘gratitude’ list every night. 8. Do something that makes you happy each day like: listen to your favorite music, draw, paint, write, or anything creative. 9. Do something for someone else who needs help. 10. If the above suggestions don t improve your mental health, talk with your therapist about the possibility of taking some medication. 11. Check out the book FEELING GOOD by David Burns. Take care of yourself Yam King

From what Ive read people are born gay, however this does not help you with anxiety. There are some medications out there that you can use for anxiety, however you would need to see your doctor. There are also meditations available if you would like to try those. The Loving Kindness Meditation is to relieve anger, ill will and thoughts of harm... on the Breath is for stress relief: it would be good if you can hook up with people who are supportive and who know what you are going through and how you are feeling. Maybe there is a Mexican support group online or a gay pride support group somewhere in a town near where you live, just so that you have people who are familiar with what you have to deal with at the moment.

Listen hun...you need to do what makes you happy.You shouldn t be ashamed of being gay.The people who truly love you will stand by you and respect your decisions.I m sure your mom wants you to be happy.As for the people in your small town...who cares what they think,you need to live your life for you,not everyone else.And the doctor who told you that being gay is a choice...hes an idiot.Dont let anyone make you feel ashamed for the way you are. I know it probably sounds easier said than done,but the fact is...until you live your life the way you want to,your anxiety will probably not go away.Stress can aslo cause the physical problems you are experiencing too. I know it probably won t be easy,but in the end its what you should do. hope it all works out :o)